An update
It's been a while.
I dated someone for three weeks. He was adding more crap to my life so clearly, he had to go. I knew that there was going to be issues so I think that's why I didn't say much to anyone about him. A couple of people knew about him and that was it. So, when it came down to it and it was over, it wasn't that big of a deal. He wanted kids and made a big issue about it. He argued with me when I was not feeling well. He could have brought it up other times. He also told me he wanted me to dye my hair red because that was attractive to him. Oh, gosh, there was just so much that was done and said that just showed he didn't want to be with me. Up until a couple of weeks ago, he thought that he wanted to be with me. We talked a bit but he wanted sex. He wanted one last time together. LOL, NO. He was awful in bed. And one time, set the mirror up to watch himself. Oi.
I talked to a friend about going to a rope obstacle course. It was the guy who wanted to marry me. We have had some conversations about what happened. So, after I thought we were fine and just friends, he asked me to come over at 11 PM. He wanted to smoke hookah. I'm all for hookah but not this time. He was trying very hard to get me over. I didn't go but at least, I was honest that I was flattered. I was fairly negative but I did like the attention.
I am changing my high school ring into a new ring. I'm super excited for this.
I've been thinking about doing another past life regression. I'm not sure if I have the money.
Sometimes I struggle with my food allergies. I couldn't eat anything at a Rotary meeting.
I'm pissed off at my dad. I know it's more emotional than realistic. I talked to a friend and she gave good insight on it. My dad thinks that he'll get $2 million for his warehouse. If he does, he wants to put it in a trust with just me and a couple of the other kids. I still feel like my dad has no idea about the complications of having a trust. One of the kids isn't 18 yet so who would be in control of his share? Kelly is a drug addict and I want to think she could figure out some good things for herself but I have a feeling she'd be a bit spoiled about it-- maybe spend it stupidly. I just want my student loans paid for so I can go and buy a house or a warehouse or a plot of land. Anything that would be an investment. I don't want this because I don't want to deal with dad's other kids. I don't feel like I'm a part of this family and I don't want to be. One of my clients had an inheritance and her greedy aunt tried to control it. It was awful. My client would try to stop it passively like knowing that no one would get ahold of her drug addicted brother so she would say that if he agreed, she'd agree with the way the money was being spent.
I had to take time away from a friendship. My friend in another state wanted to invite her boyfriend to a thing we had planned. She didn't want to leave him in her apartment. She was trying so hard to get him to do what we were doing. Even when I suggested he watch Netflix or find something to do in the huge Metropolis that she lives in, she said it was unfair for her to have to kick him out of her place and that he had nothing to do. I said it was unfair to me. I hadn't seen her for months. She sees him every weekend. She hasn't been making friends in her town-- gee, wonder why? She's not really spending time in her city finding friends. She's there with her boyfriend on the weekend or going home to my town-- but not telling anyone about it. Her family and her boyfriend get to see her when she's in town. It's awful. I don't think she was being honest with herself. She doesn't want friends. She's not making time for them. I think about the difference between her and my married friend in Boston. I told my married friend-- I'll be there before 5-- yep, everything's fine. Easy going. Perfect. I feel so understood.
I have to go.
I dated someone for three weeks. He was adding more crap to my life so clearly, he had to go. I knew that there was going to be issues so I think that's why I didn't say much to anyone about him. A couple of people knew about him and that was it. So, when it came down to it and it was over, it wasn't that big of a deal. He wanted kids and made a big issue about it. He argued with me when I was not feeling well. He could have brought it up other times. He also told me he wanted me to dye my hair red because that was attractive to him. Oh, gosh, there was just so much that was done and said that just showed he didn't want to be with me. Up until a couple of weeks ago, he thought that he wanted to be with me. We talked a bit but he wanted sex. He wanted one last time together. LOL, NO. He was awful in bed. And one time, set the mirror up to watch himself. Oi.
I talked to a friend about going to a rope obstacle course. It was the guy who wanted to marry me. We have had some conversations about what happened. So, after I thought we were fine and just friends, he asked me to come over at 11 PM. He wanted to smoke hookah. I'm all for hookah but not this time. He was trying very hard to get me over. I didn't go but at least, I was honest that I was flattered. I was fairly negative but I did like the attention.
I am changing my high school ring into a new ring. I'm super excited for this.
I've been thinking about doing another past life regression. I'm not sure if I have the money.
Sometimes I struggle with my food allergies. I couldn't eat anything at a Rotary meeting.
I'm pissed off at my dad. I know it's more emotional than realistic. I talked to a friend and she gave good insight on it. My dad thinks that he'll get $2 million for his warehouse. If he does, he wants to put it in a trust with just me and a couple of the other kids. I still feel like my dad has no idea about the complications of having a trust. One of the kids isn't 18 yet so who would be in control of his share? Kelly is a drug addict and I want to think she could figure out some good things for herself but I have a feeling she'd be a bit spoiled about it-- maybe spend it stupidly. I just want my student loans paid for so I can go and buy a house or a warehouse or a plot of land. Anything that would be an investment. I don't want this because I don't want to deal with dad's other kids. I don't feel like I'm a part of this family and I don't want to be. One of my clients had an inheritance and her greedy aunt tried to control it. It was awful. My client would try to stop it passively like knowing that no one would get ahold of her drug addicted brother so she would say that if he agreed, she'd agree with the way the money was being spent.
I had to take time away from a friendship. My friend in another state wanted to invite her boyfriend to a thing we had planned. She didn't want to leave him in her apartment. She was trying so hard to get him to do what we were doing. Even when I suggested he watch Netflix or find something to do in the huge Metropolis that she lives in, she said it was unfair for her to have to kick him out of her place and that he had nothing to do. I said it was unfair to me. I hadn't seen her for months. She sees him every weekend. She hasn't been making friends in her town-- gee, wonder why? She's not really spending time in her city finding friends. She's there with her boyfriend on the weekend or going home to my town-- but not telling anyone about it. Her family and her boyfriend get to see her when she's in town. It's awful. I don't think she was being honest with herself. She doesn't want friends. She's not making time for them. I think about the difference between her and my married friend in Boston. I told my married friend-- I'll be there before 5-- yep, everything's fine. Easy going. Perfect. I feel so understood.
I have to go.
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